I probably should have written this as the first of a return to the blog, but it is coming a few posts in…
6 weeks ago, my computer crashed and as with my circumstances it is not as easy as it seems just get back in the saddle again. I don’t want this to sound like a big whining session but an explanation of what happened. My hard drive crashed, we didn’t have the recovery kit to reinstall Windows 7, but Sony sent it to us (just a few weeks after we hoped they would get it in the mail (and since they don’t mail this program outside the US we waited an additional week for the program to be sent to us from our family in California. The package arrived just after Father’s Day in Thailand, last Sunday and Monday.
My computer spent some time in the hospital having its hard drive replaced through the skilled surgical hands of the Thai Sony repair shop, and laid up in our apartment resting and recuperating until the necessary program could arrive. Now, the computer is set for a full recovery and off to a brand new start. It is as good as new, which is sometimes good, and in other cases not so good as I am hoping to recover some necessary data that unwittingly had not yet been backed up. Some data necessary for the completion of a big project for one of my master’s classes at Wheaton College and the Acts class I taught.
Currently, the hard drive is in the hands of a specialist who is attempting to extract the data as the literal Thai translation explains the process. I feel like my hard drive is in the middle of the movie Inception.
My goal for the year to post more consistently had been met which gave me pause for gratitude. Yet, I felt the tension to keep the habit of posting regularly. In the midst of little computer access, I gained a perspective and learned or clarified several things in my life.
1. A computer is not everything, just a tool to assist one in their life. I learned to rely on the important areas of ministry and remind myself not to overlook the emphasis on relationship. I used these times to focus on those I needed to foster stronger relationships with. I also reflected more on how to be who I needed to be for them.
2. I gained an appreciation that the computer is a servant to me and not I to it. I need to know how to turn it off in the future when I don’t need to be tied to the computer for my own needs and its ability to keep me captivated on the next email or facebook update.
3. Not following everything in sports and politics didn’t ruin me. I love to be up on the news and in the know. Not being able to check my Google reader everyday allowed me to realize, I don’t have to be compelled by my urges and prompted by my impulses.
4. Rest is important. I learned that breaks from things that keep us occupied are necessary and freeing.
5. The computer is not everything. Even as my computer is an invaluable aid to help me better accomplish the tasks and assignments given me in ministry and life, I am still the primary source God uses. I spent a weekend in New Mexico speaking to pastors about missions and God’s heart to reach the world. I spoke out of my experience without relying on my computer to totally prepare me. Perhaps I could have spoken more precisely to my point, but I feel confident I gave a fantastic presentation. The computer improves my ability, but it doesn’t make me capable.
6. Finally, I hope to maintain disciplines and balance now that my computer is back working at full speed.